Thursday, December 30, 2010

Winter Blues

The lead up to Christmas is usually the best time of the year for me, this year, no exceptions. It was made even better by the fact that this year I didn't have to work and I didn't have my yearly *death* cold. I was really able to get into the Christmas spirit this year.

However, the downside to all that anticipation and excitement, is the period between Christmas and New Year's. I find this time of year to be easily the most depressing time of year, hands down. Christmas is over, nothing more to look forward to for another year (or at least until Valentine's Day), the decorations are still up but instead of being bright and cheerful they appear garish, sad, and slightly wilted. Even with all the wonderful gifts one receives during this time of year I find it really easy to slide into a melancholy funk that is very hard to get out of.

This year, I have taken steps to combat this depression.

1) All Christmas decorations are packed and put away either on Boxing Day or the day after.

2) No more Christmas themed movies or music played in my house.

3) Everything, including new gifts are put away and incorporated into the household as soon as possible.

4) Take vitamins. Vitamin D has really been helping me this year, especially this winter. We have only north facing windows in our apartment so not a lot of natural light coming in!

The biggest one is putting the Christmas decorations away. They were always the saddest part of the days after Christmas to me and it really makes a world of difference not having them up. And just, really? Try not to think about it or dwell on the fact that Christmas is over for another year. After all, there is so much to look forward to in the New Year, right?

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Merry Christmas!

Hoping everyone's Christmas is wonderful and joyous!

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Etsy Finds


Wow! So exciting to wake up to the news that my Blue Wire Wrapped Marble made it into the Etsy Finds email! I've been on Etsy for 2 years and 4 months and I've never been featured in the Finds email or on the front page before so this is just so exciting!

Monday, December 20, 2010

Castle in the Sky

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So beautiful. Don't know if it's Photoshopped or not, or where it's from, but it's so pretty I just had to share it!

From: http://epicwinftw.com/

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Vitamins

I started taking my vitamins again daily as I know I'm not getting the proper nutrition I need through my meals. Like, I hate milk so I don't drink it so I don't get as much calcium as I need. I'm also very vitamin D deficient so I have to take at least 3000 IU a day and it looks like I'm lacking in iron too so I'm now taking one a day.

I looked down at my hand today and counted how many pills I'm taking. Twelve. Twelve pills a day and that still isn't everything I need to take!

3 - Calcium supplements
3 - Vitamin D
1 - Iron
1- Cod Liver Oil
1 - Stress Ease (Vitamin B)
3 - Vitamin C - chewable.

I should still be taking a multi-vitamin, just to cover the rest of the stuff an adult is supposed to take but I just can't be bothered to right now.

And the funny thing? I just started to take these pills but I took a few of them when I was a kid (specifically the vitamin C and cod liver oil). It amazes me how much I'd been craving the vitamin C until I started taking it again. I love vitamin C and until I started taking it again I never realized it.

Friday, December 10, 2010

The Surgery

So, I promised a more detailed accounting of the surgery I underwent but have been recovering since my last post, so here it is.

I underwent a tubal ligation on Monday. It was a day surgery, so I was in and out of the hospital all in one day. I'd been planning on having one for the past 2 years as my husband and I don't want children and I strongly dislike taking HBC (I don't like messing with my body too much and the hormones and chemicals make me nervous). I arrived at the hospital at 8:30 in the morning to be ready for my surgery at 10:30 thanks to a great friend who gave me a ride. I wasn't at all nervous about it on the days leading up to that day, but I was nervous that morning.

It's funny, I wasn't nervous about the surgery, no I was nervous about being put to sleep for the surgery. I've never had a surgery before Monday so I had no idea what to expect. It was really easy though. Luckily for me, everyone at the hospital was really nice and explained what was going to happen in great detail so my nerves settled pretty fast.

Anyways, at 10:30 I was given some medicine to drink that would suppress acid reflux and wheeled into the pre-operating room where I was hooked up to an IV (yay, needles!). The anesthesiologist explained took the time to tell me how they were going to put me to sleep, how long I'd be out, and what would happen when I woke up in recovery. She, and one of my nurses were absolute angels! So, so nice and comforting! Very shortly afterwards, I was wheeled into the operating room - and I can't believe how many people are in there for the surgery, they really take care of you - and transferred to the operating table. I was given oxygen and they administered the drugs to put me to sleep. That was so strange! One moment I was totally fine - a little nervous mind you, but fine - then next, it felt like I was spinning and woozy and could barely keep my eyes open. Closed them for a second and woke up in recovery!

Not gonna lie, I was hurting and disorientated when I woke up, but it was my throat and shoulder that hurt the most. My throat because of the breathing tube I had in and my shoulder because one of the side effects of anesthetic is muscle fatigue and soreness and it's usually the shoulders that hurt the most. The lights were too bright and man, when the cramps kicked in it felt as bad as I'd ever had them during that time of the month. But they were keeping a close eye on me and I was able to get some morphine for the pain and soon I was out of there and back to the day surgery waiting room.

I'm pretty lucky. Though I was feeling pretty bad right after the surgery, after the morphine kicked in, I was pretty good. Just a little dizzy. Another girl came out of surgery same time as I did, and she was definitely feeling a lot worse than I was. She was sick and throwing up and very, very dizzy. I was able to get myself mostly dressed (the thing I missed most while waiting and afterwards in recovery was my own underwear. I mean, you're completely naked under those gowns and underwear can go a long ways towards improving your morale) and just lay there waiting for my husband to come and pick me up.

I was feeling alright for the rest of that day, just sore, tired and a little out of it. Tuesday though, I felt terrible and it wasn't from the incisions or anything down there. It was the muscle fatigue and soreness. I was so stiff and sore that my neck, shoulders and arms hurt so bad I couldn't support my own weight so I couldn't lie down and then get back up. My legs were so sore I couldn't lift them off the ground. Tuesday sucked but it went away really fast. Wednesday I was a lot less stiff and Thursday all I had left were a bit of cramps. Totally fine today just can't wait for the stitches to come out.

I think the worst part of the entire process was taking the medicine for the acid reflux. It was horrible; bitter and sour, and I nearly threw it right back up. Waking up in recovery wasn't really nice either, but the disorientation passed quickly, and they watch you very closely there to make sure you're alright.

So that's it, how it went. I'm happy I did this. I'm happy I found a doctor who respected me and my choices enough to help me get the surgery I wanted. I'm very grateful that I've recovered as well and completely as I have and I'm so happy that I've had very little negative effects as a result of this surgery.

Monday, December 6, 2010

What happened to November?

I fell under a rock and stayed there for a while. Like, all of November.

Well, that's not really true. Since being laid off, November has actually been my busiest month. I did 5 show (one every weekend from the first week of November to just last Saturday) including a 4 day show (my first big show, yay!). I also took a 5 day trip out to Kelowna to visit my parents and hang out with my brothers. There was a lot of tv watching, wine drinking and Mario playing involved with that trip. It was really nice to see them, especially seeing as I hadn't seen them since last Christmas and we won't be going down this year.

I've been so busy making and selling and running around that November slipped away from me before I could post about it. My apologies. It really was an eventful, fulfilling month and I'm sorry we didn't get to share it.

Now we are into December. Only December 6th, and so much has happened already. I had a show on the 4th which, while always fun to do, was very slow sales-wise. Which is sad and really makes me re-evaluate doing these monthly shows with the Mafia. Why do they consistently charge so much for the shows, but advertise so little? It's not only my responsibility to gather in customers; they need to advertise too!

The biggest news of December comes from today however. Today I had my first surgery. I got a tubal ligation done. No, I don't have kids, nor do I really want them. I had this done because of this. I am very, very tired of remembering to take a pill daily, ingesting hormones and chemicals that messes up your (or at least, my) body. I'm tired of taking the risks of birth control - it isn't 100% effective after all! I did this because, at the end of the day, it's my body and my choice. I chose to not have kids and I chose the best method for me to avoid this. I do not want children (not to say that I don't like them, because I do... in small doses) and I am happy to say now that, because of my very first surgery, I won't.

I have more to say about the surgery (how it went, what it was like, etc.) and why I don't want children, but for now, I'm going to lie down. I'm not hurting, just sore and a bit crampy. My heating pad is calling me and I'm going to spoil myself for a couple of days.